About Shamanism and me:

Growing up in Germany, there were always flowers and herbs drying in the attic, so that my grandmother could make remedies for colds, aches and pains. Together with my grandfather I was sent to collect nettles for salads and spinach. I spend most of the first 10 years of my life in the woods, learning about the plants and the animals from my grandfather and the respect they deserve from us. Anytime I was sad I went into the forest. There I found comfort and love. I learned to disappear, so that the animals would not notice me.(Later I found out that this technique is called ‘Shapeshifting’ and is one of the major techniques in Shamanism.) Then came puberty and with it other things became more important. At the same time my ability to see entities began to develop. This scared me to no end and I decided to have nothing further to do with any of this. So, for a while I lost all connection with the trees, the plants , the animals and the spirits. Later, as a young adult, I was busy building a life in the United States, having a family and raising a child. Only when my marriage broke up and I was left as a single Mom struggling to survive I found my connection with Mother Nature again. The trees gave me comfort, holdfast and strength. The animals taught me how to survive in a time of hardship and need. I reconnected with the earth around me, the universe above me and most importantly with myself. That was the time when I had my first conscious contact with what we call ‘Shamanism’.  At the time I did not want to have anything to do with it. But ‘Shamanism’ definitely wanted to have something to do with me. It continually crossed my path again and again, and continually I refused it. The excuses I made were different every time and met by the spirits every time in return. If I  said that I did not have the funds, one week later I would  find a teacher, who  I could afford, etc. Finally, as a last excuse, I  said that I just did not have the time, being a single Mother, working and studying to be a Naturopath.  When would I be able to commit myself to another study. If only  I would not have to work for a year, then  I would be able to do it. Well, watch what you wish for! The next thing I knew, my uterus prolapsed  and  I needed surgery. There were complications and because of that I was unable to work for a year. Now, I might be slow in learning some lessons, but I am not stupid. This lesson was too clear to be ignored and I decided that it might be wiser to listen this time and to do something with Shamanism. Who knew what else might happen if I refused again.  So my  Shamanic path began and from the first second on, it was like coming home. Everything I learned, I already knew. It was more a form of remembering than learning something new. I knew the lessons and what I had to do before I ever got them. All I could think about was, why did it take me so long to make this step. I could have found my way home, my way to the person I really was, much sooner.

Not once during the last 15 years did I regret having finally chosen to follow this path. Shamanism is my passion, my hart and my soul. It is who I am. The lessons I had to learn over the years were difficult and often painful and I have the scars to show it. Granted the scars are energetically and emotional as well as psychological, but they are there. I have paid my dues over the years, but I would not change a thing.

Even though I was lucky enough to have met and learned from some very good human teachers from different parts of the world, I received most of my lessons, knowledge and wisdom from  the spirits. After 7 years of learning, falling down and getting up again, an Indonesian Shaman finally told me that it was time to share my knowledge and the learned techniques with others. I told him that I had still so much more to learn, and was not ready yet, if ever. But according to him, the time had come to share all that I have learned with others. Finally, in 2005, I started sharing my knowledge, by creating  a website under the name of Shaman’s Home. Now, 8 years later, I am still teaching the words of the spirits and the power of Shamanism and how shamanic techniques can change a person’s life.

 The spirits taught me the importance of being humble and honest to myself as well as others. They taught me patience. They taught me authenticity and to be true to myself. They taught me not to give up believing in others and to help them in their quest to find  their path in life. They taught me to give others the means to find out who they really are and what personal strength and powers which lie within each one of them. They taught me the importance of being connected with one’s own roots and the place on Earth one lives on.
More than anything, they taught me the importance to let people know that the only way to change their life is by taking responsibility for it. But most of all, they taught me the power that true Shamanism and how a person’s life can become more complete, stronger and healthier because of it.

For me personally, Shamanism is the most balanced form of healing there is. "As above, so below. As inside, so outside”. It is actually much more than healing, it is a way of life. More than that it  is the natural way of life for each and every one of us. We as people of the Earth have been part of Shamanism for as long as we exist. From the first moment that mankind began to live in groups, there was one person in the group, who was responsible for the physical, mental and spiritual wellbeing of the group. This was the Shaman. Shamanism has been with us for thousands of years and it is no wonder that it is having a comeback now. Having lost all of our connection with nature in favor of technology and greed, we are at a point in time that we know there has to be something more. Something is missing in our lives, something vital. And this something is our connection with our Mother Earth. Shamanism re-connects us with who we really are: children of the Earth and the Universe. We are in harmony when we live in harmony with our surroundings and with the natural rhythm of our body. We are healthy when our spiritual needs to be connected with the universe are met. Shamanism does both. It takes care of the whole you. It takes care of the body ( your earthly incarnation) as well as the soul (the eternal light being that you are). It awakens you to the powers which are naturally within you, but which you have forgotten. It shows you your path and lets you know who you really are.

And that is why I do what I do.

 My personal vision for this lifetime:
 To create a safe haven for children with lack of self-esteem, self-confidence, self-love or self-worth.

Adults can choose the path they want to follow in their life. Children cannot. They live in a world in which gentleness, sweetness and kindness are looked upon as weakness. These children are often the ones being bullied, mobbed or beaten up. It is my dream to create a place for these children. A place, where they can be themselves and where they are loved for who they are. A place, where they can feel safe. A place, where they can be themselves. A place where they can learn to regain their self-esteem, their self-confidence, their self-worth and most of all the love for themselves. This is my dream and this is where Shaman’s Home stands for. These children are our future. These children are the key to make this world a better place. It is our responsibility to protect and nurture these beautiful gentle souls.

With the help of the spirits, the powers that be and the power of our Mother Earth I hope that one day this dream will come true. Until then I will continue to do all that I can for those of you who find me and feel some kind of resonance with what I say and do within the small frame available to me at this point in time.

Walk in harmony and light.

AkitaKatanka – Keeper of the Four Winds